I Hate When People Say “It Goes Without Saying”

…because that’s not true, is it? Things need to be said. Things need to be exposed. Things need to be brought out into the light so they can be confronted – right?

It’s a hard thing to write about honesty – when I haven’t exactly even been the slightest of friends with honesty lately. Much easier it is to stick your head in the sand, and pretend nothing happened – that way you won’t have to deal with it – right?

Wrong. Those things that you try to sweep under the rug and forget about have a nasty way of cropping up again and again – eventually with increasing frequency – until you’re eventually forced to deal with the entire festering mess.

A few mistruths (cross between mistake and untruth) that left my lips a few years ago came back to bite me recently, and it became necessary to deal with them. Confront them, address them and correct the misapprehensions – no matter how painful or unpleasant it was. A conversation that lasted about four hours and that saw me doing more honest-talking than I’d probably done in my whole life.

And apparently that was all he needed. I’m not saying that the questions stopped, but they have eased off immensely. And that tension that existed for so long between us? Also seems to – most days – be gone.

It’s not easy for us when there’s doubt (his) as to whether we’d have stayed together but for The Kid. It’s not easy with trust issues (both of ours)  and an instinct to avoid the truth directly wherever possible(mine). It’s not easy with stress and pressure and interference from the outside world. It’s not easy, but it’s our life and it’s our relationship and it’s all I’ve ever known.

I’m a stubborn bitch. That doesn’t go without saying. I want my own way and I want it all the time and I’m pretty much prepared to do whatever I need to do to get my own way. And that’s where he’s perfect for me. I need someone that isn’t a pushover. I need someone who has the plums to stand up to me and tell me when I’m being a fucking idiot and just to calm the fuck down. I need someone that keeps me on my toes, keeps me interested – someone who knows me better than I know myself.  He isn’t and he does. He’s everything.

He’d said to me, after we’d argued two Fridays ago that he’d hoped that the ring would put an end to all of his questions. And in a strange way it did. That argument forced me to look them straight in the eye. I realised a lot of things that night.

The most important being – I can’t remember my life before he was in it. And I can’t picture it without him in it now. Not even when I’m at my grumpiest or he’s just done something that bugged the living snot out of me. I love him.

And yes. I tell him all the time. I don’t believe it goes without saying. I don’t believe that at all. Tell the people you love, that you love them. All the time.

It’s important.

More than you’ll ever know.

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9 Responses to I Hate When People Say “It Goes Without Saying”

  1. cassey says:

    Yay for no more tension 🙂 I’m with you on the tell your love that you love him all the time/often; it’s important.
    .-= cassey´s last blog ..Day 30- A letter to yourself- tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself =-.

  2. Wenchy says:

    I thought the ring would also end the jealousy. It didn’t.

  3. rubyyogi says:

    You are wise. Most ppl don’t spend the time & effort. Your situation isn’t all that different from mine, just in reverse. It takes time to move forward. I try to celebrate the growth & new understanding I develop, it helps to deal with intermediate set backs.

  4. Bobbi Janay says:

    I understand this post, and how only time can heal wounds and sometimes there is still scars.

  5. Angel says:

    I am so with you on that front!! I tell my loved ones how much I love them on a regular basis!
    I am glad you and your other half have managed to make some positive headway.
    .-= Angel´s last blog ..Today Its My Birthday =-.

  6. SheBee says:

    I’m calling you out for being the worst blogger I currently know.

    Just saying.

    Love you bitchtits. Write soon.

    xx
    .-= SheBee´s last blog ..Home is where the heart is =-.

  7. Daisy says:

    Oh wow!! I have missed a lot!!!

    I agree that things do NOT go without saying. I recently read an article about how lack of communication can spiral to toxic levels very easily. Avoidance is great but definitely not a long term strategy for a happy life (for the most part…i avoid lots of things happily but maybe it’s because those are THINGS not words)

    Anyway….love this post!

  8. I came over after I saw your subject on a blog. The thing I hate that people say is “no brainer” – because a no brainer for you is NOT one for me 🙂

    No idea what you’re talking about further… but honesty is always to be applauded so well done to you 🙂

  9. cybersass says:

    wow, it’s been months since i’ve had time to either read or write blogs, so i have lots of catching up to do.
    i can relate to so much of what you’re saying – and yes, it’s amazing how much better my relationship is when i actually remember to say, “i love you”, when i take the conversation out of my head and actually vocalize what i’m thinking/feeling.

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